[ Isaac works nights. By now, of course. Ilias knows this. Even comes by from time to time with a pot of tea, or to ask after an herb, or just to say hello, letting a touch linger on elbow or forearm like neither of them have noticed how often that keeps happening. Since Ghislain, he's there a little more often, working at the hand. Three severed tendons that don't quite want to knit.
He isn't there tonight. Where he is, as becomes evident only at the very end of Isaac's shift, is at the end of the fourth floor hallway of the Templar tower, outside Isaac's door. A shadow near the window, head back, pale face meeting with pale hand to exhale a matching shade of smoke from cigarillos he shouldn't be smoking, out into the cold he shouldn't be letting in.
Stubs it out with Circle-trained swiftness, at the approach of steps.
He wishes he'd brought wine. He wishes this were the sort of visit that might have started with a bottle of wine and gone— anywhere. Anywhere else. ]
Can I ask you something? In private. About the battle.
[ The battle was more than a week ago. Sending crystals exist. Ilias is wearing his usual warmth like someone's shrunk it in the wash. That's probably all fine. ]
[ His smile folds away. So much for wishful thinking.
An eye to the hall, but he picked this room to purpose: Ears above to hear a scream, and none to hear anything else. He gestures at the door — go on, then — fits key to lock.
(That'll never stop being strange, the shape of it in his palm. Cold against skin.) ]
Shut the window, there's a fireplace.
[ And more cigarettes. Maker, he looks like shit.
The door creaks open, Isaac doesn't stop to check he's been followed. It's tidier than the sprawl of his Infirmary table, as deliberately ordered as the chaos below must be. Someone's dragged off the second bed, the resulting space far too large for its scant possessions. A trunk, a desk. Candles.
The brush of a hand catches them alight, aid for the dim sun rising through its own, narrow glass. (No bars, and that's strange too.) He doesn't look back to sling down his bag, set to routine. Silence fills its own expectation: What is it? ]
[ The door shuts neatly behind him, and he follows, eyes drawn in to the negative space. When they'd first moved into the Necropolis, he'd marveled at that, Clio filling her room to bursting with a life's accumulation of knicknacks and books and brightly colored settees, and his like this. More room than he'd known what to do with. (He'd taken smaller quarters, after.)
He'd rather be talking about that, than this.
He shouldn't have another cigarette. Doesn't want to test the steadiness of his hands just now. In place of either, he lets out an exhale, bracing. ]
You did something on the field that— [ Bones warping beneath stretching skin— ] That they don't teach in Circles.
I don't think anyone else saw. [ But he had. And hadn't said a word, even when they'd spoken of heads and platters. Might never have said a word. ] But I need to ask you why you learned it.
[ His shoulders don't tense. He doesn't pause, now fiddling with a poker,
But he doesn't answer, either. Nell saw. Nell saw, and that was danger enough — leverage, if he thought she'd a reason to use it. Hasn't given her one.
So what do you want? Ilias waited to speak of this. Might have knocked that arrow in more dangerous company, instead saved the bait for a week or more. Tinder catches, ignites. He pulls back. ]
An accident,
[ No, that's how. Isaac turns, and his face is too still to be anything but wary; taut about the awareness of threat. It's been more than a decade since a mask could cover these little slips, and he's never had the control necessary to lie like a true professional. To pretend that he's about to put down the iron in his fist.
(It isn't blood. Would burning be kinder? Do you really think anyone would believe —) ]
You didn't fight. In the war.
[ The last one. A question:They don't share contacts; that only means so much. ]
[ There are times when Ilias will avert his eyes from other people's vulnerabilities, out of politeness or respect; this isn't one. He can't afford for it to be, fights the desire to reassure this man he doesn't want to be a threat to, to just believe whatever his fallible heart wants to believe instead of what's in front of him: that Isaac's first instinct is to hide, here as much as on the road from Ghislain; that he's not as practiced at it as some.
'An accident' can mean a lot of things. ]
No.
[ Existed near, perhaps. Been accessory to. Dipped cloth into stream and told himself the water wasn't running red, would stop running red soon, but didn't fight. ]
[ Are, or may still: Depends what you hang your victories upon. The Inquisition is a temporary state, the rights it's been bullied into are. There will be progress, for some — in all those places it already coiled, upon piles of coin and banners of house —
But they weren't sold to Tevinter for a lark. ]
Tell me what you think you saw.
[ Best they be entirely clear. Already stupid to have ceded this much ground. ]
A creature's body contorting beyond recognition beneath your hand, is what I saw.
[ There could be disgust in those words; odder perhaps that Ilias's voice is entirely devoid of it. That even poised on the edge of chain-smoking himself into an early grave, he can talk about the active mutilation of a living being like they're discussing a painting in a gallery. That he can't talk about it any other way. ]
I am not asking if it can be used in self-defense. [ He was fighting an ogre; they were losing a war. ] I am asking why that is the skill you chose to develop.
[ If there was a preexisting fascination. For example. ]
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[ A contorted Darkspawn must look like an ordinary fucking person —
It's the wrong point to argue from. If this is even that: An argument, blackmail. Recruitment, an interrogation. Is this when you shout for the latest washed-out knight to grace us with their dead title,
No. Wouldn't trouble them like that, would he? Ilias Fabria doesn't like others to worry. Not when he might do something about it. ]
It isn't. [ What he's chosen. Six years — five, seven, they must have guessed on the papers — and a woman screaming, and the baby so pale. It sounds flimsy to his own ears (the truth always does). ] Why do you imagine I studied healing?
I am suggesting, [ The poker swipes at air: Grip familiar as any apprentice's staff. ] That it didn't require study. Do you really think I'd cultivate this?
[ Until he was pressed. Until he needed an edge. Until his back was to the wall, and no one thinks to silence a healer, do they? Not while another's spitting fire in their face. Until he'd done it, and there was no turning back, and only good sense to work out the rest — ]
I don't know if anyone else could.
[ There's nothing new under the sun. The sun's what he'd have been under, to ask. ]
Yes, yes he did, and the relief that he might not have to keep thinking that breaks visibly across his face, not as a held breath released so much as whatever adrenaline had been holding him together cutting out. A hand presses to his forehead to stop it trembling.
I don't know if anyone else--
He doesn't laugh, but it's a near thing, bubbling to a choked, bitter sort of noise between pressed-closed lips. He knows. Knows and can't say a fucking word. Presses his eyes closed instead. ]
I had to ask, Isaac. [ It sounds like an apology; not a good one. ] I just need to be sure, that it is something you do out of necessity, and not--
The vicious little rush of victory, and he's never needed a spell for this, to ruin a perfectly good thing. Isaac casts the poker aside, an anticlimactic clatter. Good, He thinks. This can end now.
Quietly: ]
Ilias, [ Who waited a week. Waited, and smiled, only to melt down here; a sculpture of distress. Ilias who has always been a little too good to be true. Who didn't fight in the war, not the way you mean, ] Are you going to tell me what's going on?
[ Or is he going to get (the hell) out? This is yet a perilous imbalance, the cards all in Ilias' hands (hand shaking on his face, and someone ought to take it —)
He doesn't. Palm coils about air. ]
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[ No, is the answer his eyes give. When he'd come here, perhaps that had been the plan, after he'd asked the questions he'd needed to ask and gotten the answers he hoped for, but now that he has — how can he drag Isaac any further into this? (Doesn't he owe him a fucking explanation, after all that?)
Instead of words, his gaze drops. Hands, too, to his pocket, fishing out a simple circle of beads strung to a long cylindrical clasp. Has to press them hard against his coat to get at the fastener one-handed, fingers slipping on the clasp, but he breathes and (pull yourself together) sets to unscrewing it. ]
I will handle it. [ A preface. An easy out, for when at the end of this Isaac still wants him gone — from this room, from his life. ]
I trusted someone I should not have, once. It went very poorly. [ It's the thinnest sliver of the story. It's not a lie. (It went very poorly, and he needs to ask now if his would-be lovers enjoy deforming live darkspawn; he can't just tell.) ] But he was dead. Years ago, I was so sure that he was dead.
But either I am losing my fucking mind, or— [ Or he isn't. Is it crazier to wish for a hallucination, or to have one? One end of the bracelet swings free. ] I hoped that I could trust you to just— tell me which. Please.
[ Please. A hand extended, the beads offered in a white nuckled fist. Within the hollow cylinder of its clasp, a small, very old vial of clouded glass and red. It's not Circle standard issue. It's easier to hand a Templar than a story about twisting bones. ]
[ Like he would have handled this? There aren't many ways to be sure. Not ones that end with someone's blood in your locket.
He takes the phial, with a pause that isn't hesitation so much as instinct: A reverence that time and proximity ought to have lessened, haven't. It feels like a bad secret; intimate in the manner of any viscera. The spells aren't difficult, enough Loyalists must know — at least, Loyalists without an arrest record. He doesn't need those lessons now to observe the gleam. Dim, and unmistakable.
(Not so bright as his own.)
I trusted someone I should not have. How peculiar it must be to draw an end to that story. Closure, tied up neat. How peculiar to watch it unravel. If any of this can even be believed — that couldn't be Ilias' blood. Could be anyone else's. As stories go, it's all terribly convenient.
[ Alive. It feels like— something. Finality. A decision. Dread (hope?) flooding his limbs with weightless cold, but at least he can breathe around the damage when he knows its shape. How and why matter less than the fact of it, neatly reducing every nonessential to background noise.
He ought to cut ties now, while there's still time. He ought to follow it, try to finish this again, or just run and run and run, but what he's doing is standing here in front of Isaac's fireplace, surveying his own wreckage.
He reaches to take the phial back, his hand steadier. –Doesn't rush to pull away again. Can't quite find it in him. ]
Thank you. [ In case there isn't another chance to say it. ] Not just for this.
[ There's a way to be sure — more sure than so sure, at least for a location. An identity. A mage bursting into lightning (ice, terror) would find it difficult to hide. He doesn't volunteer it. This could be anyone's blood.
(It seems a bad moment to suggest more sketchy magic.)
Ilias' palm curls about glass. Isaac's hand catches, a second followed up to smooth bloodless knuckles. One cracked thumb circles his wrist like a worry stone, lifted to meet the dip of Isaac's chin, the press of lips where skin meets sleeve. ]
[ A different sort of stillness settles in his eyes; slows breath.
This is not Ilias's finest moment. Isaac has seen him finer. This is shaking to pieces and not being sure how to pull himself back together again. This is vulnerability with a blast radius; the sort anyone in their right mind keeps away from. Not the sort you treat gently.
And yet.
His thumb shifts to find the line of Isaac's jaw. Brows pitch; You have terrible taste. But instead of saying so, instead of saying anything at all that might tilt the delicate balance of this moment, he steps in and presses a kiss to Isaac's lips. ]
[ There are questions to ask. How long ago did it start? Where’d you leave them, that Nevarra, Orlais, Kirkwall didn’t stir it? What exactly were you planning on if you hadn’t liked my answers?
There are better things to do.
Isaac leans in, savours the contact — not long, not to delay the graze of teeth as he pulls back once more, head inclined like the cat still after a canary. Too curious to be entirely self-satisfied, too satisfied with its own curiousity. He has terrible taste; that's never been unique. ]
Show me, [ His grip slackens, twists in turn to settle over Ilias' hand, over Ilias' chest. Skin pressed to skin, to cloth and sluggish glow. Fingers drift exploratory, still tracking the motions of the hand beneath his. A guide. ] What you want.
[ If this is even it; contact kept loose enough to pull away. His other palm slips to rest where muscle meets bone, the overhang of hip beneath cloth. He doesn't really need directions. ]
The hand beneath Isaac's doesn't move first; it's the other that lifts to meet it, two fingers reaching between hand and cloth to draw out that glowing bit of glass, lower it to tuck back into a pocket. Defining a positive with a negative. Not this.
(The first time he'd let anyone else touch him, it'd been like trying to scrape off his own skin, raking other people's hands over every bit of him that had learned to want just one, as if the only way to disentangle himself was to shed what he'd been before. Become something new.)
(He doesn't feel disentangled now. He feels like the thing doing the entangling, vines reaching for bricks to twist into against the wind. That's probably not important.)
Isaac doesn't need directions, but Ilias's eyes light at the prospect of giving them, curious in turn what exactly he expects. Shyness? Politeness? Fingers beneath fingers lead up to the collar of his robes, always so tightly buttoned, and unfasten the clasp at the very top -- and the next, and the next, a shaky breath pulled in or released between each, until there's room to slide his hand in around ribs, skin against skin.
(There's a scar, thin white and too clean from the hollow of his throat down, that he tries not to touch at all.) ]
[ If not shyness, perhaps reserve — whatever it is that inspires such earnest attempts at distance —
One unraveled with suspicious ease, along the length of a seam: Pale and deliberate as the path that Ilias cuts around it, and still threatening to snare the eye. Isaac stalls to catch the curve of a rib, fingers splayed to pin Ilias' hand in place. The press of his weight forward, the shift to grip a handful of thigh, betrays more eagerness than he'd care. It's been a while.
(Longer, since there were any secrets worth stealing.)
Stubble grazes under his lips, pressed in again to whisper at a jaw. ]
Like this? [ A huff of breath, amused; another moment to decide that: ] Not like this.
[ It's a shit angle. His neck is going to kill him. ]
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[ A low laugh hums in his throat, even as his head tilts back to bare that vulnerability too. It is a shit angle. The accommodating bend of his knee does nothing to help matters, either — but they're not apprentices relegated to balancing acts in awkward alcoves any longer.
A decision is made; a heated murmur near his ear, and a touch sliding greedily round the back of his neck to the midline, to keep Isaac near as he takes a reluctant step back, ] Follow me?
[ Convenient, that there isn't more furniture in this room after all: a destination, and not much to trip over along the way. ]
[ He shoves, playful, frees hand from hand. It's not the convenient grip to relinquish, that one's still hitching Ilias’ step up the side of his leg.
It makes for a strange, hobbled gait: Four feet and two heads of some Imperial chimera; motion entangled and enumerated by each point of contact — five fingers on his neck, eight teeth in Ilias' — the drum of pulse. They aren’t moving quickly, wouldn’t win a race, but tell that to the blood in his head (lower).
Fumbles at a button, caught in momentary indecision, his or his. But fuck, if robes aren’t the worst for this, and he doesn’t know the Nevarran style to wrangle it blind. Shakes his own loose just enough to stumble, lean into it. What good are arms like that if you can't, occasionally, fall into them. ]
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He isn't there tonight. Where he is, as becomes evident only at the very end of Isaac's shift, is at the end of the fourth floor hallway of the Templar tower, outside Isaac's door. A shadow near the window, head back, pale face meeting with pale hand to exhale a matching shade of smoke from cigarillos he shouldn't be smoking, out into the cold he shouldn't be letting in.
Stubs it out with Circle-trained swiftness, at the approach of steps.
He wishes he'd brought wine. He wishes this were the sort of visit that might have started with a bottle of wine and gone— anywhere. Anywhere else. ]
Can I ask you something? In private. About the battle.
[ The battle was more than a week ago. Sending crystals exist. Ilias is wearing his usual warmth like someone's shrunk it in the wash. That's probably all fine. ]
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An eye to the hall, but he picked this room to purpose: Ears above to hear a scream, and none to hear anything else. He gestures at the door — go on, then — fits key to lock.
(That'll never stop being strange, the shape of it in his palm. Cold against skin.) ]
Shut the window, there's a fireplace.
[ And more cigarettes. Maker, he looks like shit.
The door creaks open, Isaac doesn't stop to check he's been followed. It's tidier than the sprawl of his Infirmary table, as deliberately ordered as the chaos below must be. Someone's dragged off the second bed, the resulting space far too large for its scant possessions. A trunk, a desk. Candles.
The brush of a hand catches them alight, aid for the dim sun rising through its own, narrow glass. (No bars, and that's strange too.) He doesn't look back to sling down his bag, set to routine. Silence fills its own expectation: What is it? ]
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He'd rather be talking about that, than this.
He shouldn't have another cigarette. Doesn't want to test the steadiness of his hands just now. In place of either, he lets out an exhale, bracing. ]
You did something on the field that— [ Bones warping beneath stretching skin— ] That they don't teach in Circles.
I don't think anyone else saw. [ But he had. And hadn't said a word, even when they'd spoken of heads and platters. Might never have said a word. ] But I need to ask you why you learned it.
[ Not how, or where, or from whom. Why. ]
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But he doesn't answer, either. Nell saw. Nell saw, and that was danger enough — leverage, if he thought she'd a reason to use it. Hasn't given her one.
So what do you want? Ilias waited to speak of this. Might have knocked that arrow in more dangerous company, instead saved the bait for a week or more. Tinder catches, ignites. He pulls back. ]
An accident,
[ No, that's how. Isaac turns, and his face is too still to be anything but wary; taut about the awareness of threat. It's been more than a decade since a mask could cover these little slips, and he's never had the control necessary to lie like a true professional. To pretend that he's about to put down the iron in his fist.
(It isn't blood. Would burning be kinder? Do you really think anyone would believe —) ]
You didn't fight. In the war.
[ The last one. A question:They don't share contacts; that only means so much. ]
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'An accident' can mean a lot of things. ]
No.
[ Existed near, perhaps. Been accessory to. Dipped cloth into stream and told himself the water wasn't running red, would stop running red soon, but didn't fight. ]
Not in the way you mean.
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[ Are, or may still: Depends what you hang your victories upon. The Inquisition is a temporary state, the rights it's been bullied into are. There will be progress, for some — in all those places it already coiled, upon piles of coin and banners of house —
But they weren't sold to Tevinter for a lark. ]
Tell me what you think you saw.
[ Best they be entirely clear. Already stupid to have ceded this much ground. ]
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[ There could be disgust in those words; odder perhaps that Ilias's voice is entirely devoid of it. That even poised on the edge of chain-smoking himself into an early grave, he can talk about the active mutilation of a living being like they're discussing a painting in a gallery. That he can't talk about it any other way. ]
I am not asking if it can be used in self-defense. [ He was fighting an ogre; they were losing a war. ] I am asking why that is the skill you chose to develop.
[ If there was a preexisting fascination. For example. ]
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It's the wrong point to argue from. If this is even that: An argument, blackmail. Recruitment, an interrogation. Is this when you shout for the latest washed-out knight to grace us with their dead title,
No. Wouldn't trouble them like that, would he? Ilias Fabria doesn't like others to worry. Not when he might do something about it. ]
It isn't. [ What he's chosen. Six years — five, seven, they must have guessed on the papers — and a woman screaming, and the baby so pale. It sounds flimsy to his own ears (the truth always does). ] Why do you imagine I studied healing?
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I'm sorry, are you suggesting— [ careful, delicate syllables, ] You would have rather studied this, from the very beginning?
[ Is this just his life now. ]
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I am suggesting, [ The poker swipes at air: Grip familiar as any apprentice's staff. ] That it didn't require study. Do you really think I'd cultivate this?
[ Until he was pressed. Until he needed an edge. Until his back was to the wall, and no one thinks to silence a healer, do they? Not while another's spitting fire in their face. Until he'd done it, and there was no turning back, and only good sense to work out the rest — ]
I don't know if anyone else could.
[ There's nothing new under the sun. The sun's what he'd have been under, to ask. ]
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Yes, yes he did, and the relief that he might not have to keep thinking that breaks visibly across his face, not as a held breath released so much as whatever adrenaline had been holding him together cutting out. A hand presses to his forehead to stop it trembling.
I don't know if anyone else--
He doesn't laugh, but it's a near thing, bubbling to a choked, bitter sort of noise between pressed-closed lips. He knows. Knows and can't say a fucking word. Presses his eyes closed instead. ]
I had to ask, Isaac. [ It sounds like an apology; not a good one. ] I just need to be sure, that it is something you do out of necessity, and not--
[ You know. Fun. ]
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[ Ilias crumbles, and his first thought is: Good.
The vicious little rush of victory, and he's never needed a spell for this, to ruin a perfectly good thing. Isaac casts the poker aside, an anticlimactic clatter. Good, He thinks. This can end now.
Quietly: ]
Ilias, [ Who waited a week. Waited, and smiled, only to melt down here; a sculpture of distress. Ilias who has always been a little too good to be true. Who didn't fight in the war, not the way you mean, ] Are you going to tell me what's going on?
[ Or is he going to get (the hell) out? This is yet a perilous imbalance, the cards all in Ilias' hands (hand shaking on his face, and someone ought to take it —)
He doesn't. Palm coils about air. ]
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Instead of words, his gaze drops. Hands, too, to his pocket, fishing out a simple circle of beads strung to a long cylindrical clasp. Has to press them hard against his coat to get at the fastener one-handed, fingers slipping on the clasp, but he breathes and (pull yourself together) sets to unscrewing it. ]
I will handle it. [ A preface. An easy out, for when at the end of this Isaac still wants him gone — from this room, from his life. ]
I trusted someone I should not have, once. It went very poorly. [ It's the thinnest sliver of the story. It's not a lie. (It went very poorly, and he needs to ask now if his would-be lovers enjoy deforming live darkspawn; he can't just tell.) ] But he was dead. Years ago, I was so sure that he was dead.
But either I am losing my fucking mind, or— [ Or he isn't. Is it crazier to wish for a hallucination, or to have one? One end of the bracelet swings free. ] I hoped that I could trust you to just— tell me which. Please.
[ Please. A hand extended, the beads offered in a white nuckled fist. Within the hollow cylinder of its clasp, a small, very old vial of clouded glass and red. It's not Circle standard issue. It's easier to hand a Templar than a story about twisting bones. ]
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He takes the phial, with a pause that isn't hesitation so much as instinct: A reverence that time and proximity ought to have lessened, haven't. It feels like a bad secret; intimate in the manner of any viscera. The spells aren't difficult, enough Loyalists must know — at least, Loyalists without an arrest record. He doesn't need those lessons now to observe the gleam. Dim, and unmistakable.
(Not so bright as his own.)
I trusted someone I should not have. How peculiar it must be to draw an end to that story. Closure, tied up neat. How peculiar to watch it unravel. If any of this can even be believed — that couldn't be Ilias' blood. Could be anyone else's. As stories go, it's all terribly convenient.
This can end now, ]
Alive.
[ But it doesn't. ]
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He ought to cut ties now, while there's still time. He ought to follow it, try to finish this again, or just run and run and run, but what he's doing is standing here in front of Isaac's fireplace, surveying his own wreckage.
He reaches to take the phial back, his hand steadier. –Doesn't rush to pull away again. Can't quite find it in him. ]
Thank you. [ In case there isn't another chance to say it. ] Not just for this.
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(It seems a bad moment to suggest more sketchy magic.)
Ilias' palm curls about glass. Isaac's hand catches, a second followed up to smooth bloodless knuckles. One cracked thumb circles his wrist like a worry stone, lifted to meet the dip of Isaac's chin, the press of lips where skin meets sleeve. ]
Of course.
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This is not Ilias's finest moment. Isaac has seen him finer. This is shaking to pieces and not being sure how to pull himself back together again. This is vulnerability with a blast radius; the sort anyone in their right mind keeps away from. Not the sort you treat gently.
And yet.
His thumb shifts to find the line of Isaac's jaw. Brows pitch; You have terrible taste. But instead of saying so, instead of saying anything at all that might tilt the delicate balance of this moment, he steps in and presses a kiss to Isaac's lips. ]
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There are better things to do.
Isaac leans in, savours the contact — not long, not to delay the graze of teeth as he pulls back once more, head inclined like the cat still after a canary. Too curious to be entirely self-satisfied, too satisfied with its own curiousity. He has terrible taste; that's never been unique. ]
Show me, [ His grip slackens, twists in turn to settle over Ilias' hand, over Ilias' chest. Skin pressed to skin, to cloth and sluggish glow. Fingers drift exploratory, still tracking the motions of the hand beneath his. A guide. ] What you want.
[ If this is even it; contact kept loose enough to pull away. His other palm slips to rest where muscle meets bone, the overhang of hip beneath cloth. He doesn't really need directions. ]
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The hand beneath Isaac's doesn't move first; it's the other that lifts to meet it, two fingers reaching between hand and cloth to draw out that glowing bit of glass, lower it to tuck back into a pocket. Defining a positive with a negative. Not this.
(The first time he'd let anyone else touch him, it'd been like trying to scrape off his own skin, raking other people's hands over every bit of him that had learned to want just one, as if the only way to disentangle himself was to shed what he'd been before. Become something new.)
(He doesn't feel disentangled now. He feels like the thing doing the entangling, vines reaching for bricks to twist into against the wind. That's probably not important.)
Isaac doesn't need directions, but Ilias's eyes light at the prospect of giving them, curious in turn what exactly he expects. Shyness? Politeness? Fingers beneath fingers lead up to the collar of his robes, always so tightly buttoned, and unfasten the clasp at the very top -- and the next, and the next, a shaky breath pulled in or released between each, until there's room to slide his hand in around ribs, skin against skin.
(There's a scar, thin white and too clean from the hollow of his throat down, that he tries not to touch at all.) ]
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One unraveled with suspicious ease, along the length of a seam: Pale and deliberate as the path that Ilias cuts around it, and still threatening to snare the eye. Isaac stalls to catch the curve of a rib, fingers splayed to pin Ilias' hand in place. The press of his weight forward, the shift to grip a handful of thigh, betrays more eagerness than he'd care. It's been a while.
(Longer, since there were any secrets worth stealing.)
Stubble grazes under his lips, pressed in again to whisper at a jaw. ]
Like this? [ A huff of breath, amused; another moment to decide that: ] Not like this.
[ It's a shit angle. His neck is going to kill him. ]
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A decision is made; a heated murmur near his ear, and a touch sliding greedily round the back of his neck to the midline, to keep Isaac near as he takes a reluctant step back, ] Follow me?
[ Convenient, that there isn't more furniture in this room after all: a destination, and not much to trip over along the way. ]
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Anywhere.
[ He shoves, playful, frees hand from hand. It's not the convenient grip to relinquish, that one's still hitching Ilias’ step up the side of his leg.
It makes for a strange, hobbled gait: Four feet and two heads of some Imperial chimera; motion entangled and enumerated by each point of contact — five fingers on his neck, eight teeth in Ilias' — the drum of pulse. They aren’t moving quickly, wouldn’t win a race, but tell that to the blood in his head (lower).
Fumbles at a button, caught in momentary indecision, his or his. But fuck, if robes aren’t the worst for this, and he doesn’t know the Nevarran style to wrangle it blind. Shakes his own loose just enough to stumble, lean into it. What good are arms like that if you can't, occasionally, fall into them. ]