I always feel them, the way you'd be aware of someone standing on the other side of a drawn curtain.
[ which derrica must realize sounds less than secure, because she clarifies— ]
I choose to draw it back and invite them forward. And I choose to keep them behind it. I know how that sounds, but it's...a tradition. Something passed down to me that I've managed to keep.
It's never a burden. But it reminds me that I am very far from the women who would practice with me, and that I might never find my way back. So in a way it's...it can be harder to attune to it than I remember.
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I trust him. And you. I trust that neither of you want to be those men.
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[ more seriously: ]
When you dreamed, the things that we spoke of —
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[ he's a BIT ]
And understand that I am not worried when I ask whether you feel them aware of you, now.
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[ not unamused, just. serious. ]
I always feel them, the way you'd be aware of someone standing on the other side of a drawn curtain.
[ which derrica must realize sounds less than secure, because she clarifies— ]
I choose to draw it back and invite them forward. And I choose to keep them behind it. I know how that sounds, but it's...a tradition. Something passed down to me that I've managed to keep.
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Is it heavy?
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[ no ]
Thinner, near a rift, or in places where the veil is failing. Or when I reach for it, to draw it back.
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[ tradition. ]
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It shouldn't be.
[ but— ]
It's never a burden. But it reminds me that I am very far from the women who would practice with me, and that I might never find my way back. So in a way it's...it can be harder to attune to it than I remember.
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Do they sense that? The spirits.
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[ it's been a long time since she reached out with such intentions. ]
Isaac, where did you come from before you came here?
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there are no ghosts, he must have told have a dozen others. there are impressions, imitations. memories. surely, some piece of them must carry. ]
Ghislain.
[ it's not how he signs his letters. enchanter of montsimmard. ]
It was — peculiar, to return.
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[ and which would be more difficult to be met with? ]
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[ but you know. rifts. ruefully, ]
I did not often leave the tower.
[ something something 'attempted murder charge' ]
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[ feels like the right sentiment. ]
Was there anything good there?
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Maybe if you remember enough of it the cooks can recreate it for you.